Let's Talk About Inspirations

Today, the weather is gloomy. I feel good, comfy and inspired to write this entry. A deviation from the successive entries of posting pictures and two sentenced posts. I wanted to write something about inspirations. But let me just warn you that my thought is so unorganized and so is this entry.


Same day last week, I was in a total opposite. I was a complete b*tch and I knew my colleagues (both classmates and co-workers) noticed that. I couldn't even give them a decent smile or a simple hello. I felt horrible, stressed and harassed. I was so quiet and grumpy all day. I wanted to resign effective immediately but too late, I already gave my word that I'll render a 30-day notice to my boss. Everyday last week, I felt being dragged to work. I made the decision to leave 2 weeks before I made it official. Thanks to discipline and the fear of future walk-of-shame, I tendered my resignation in the best possible way. 30 days! What was I thinking? I should have made it two-weeks or immediate. I didn't like going to work anymore. And thanks again to some exams in school, I was able to get an excuse to be absent from work (though I really need to be absent to study, so it was not really an excuse). It was really a forgettable week.

Weekend was better for me. First, I don't work on Saturdays, second,I don't have a class and third, Ateneo Blue Eagles won in Game 1 of UAAP Finals in a convincing fashion (yey!). I read a Cosmo Magazine and I browsed on my favorite section (nope, not that part), the section where it inspires a lot of women to be independent and fearless (yes, that part). And you know what I learned? I learned that everytime you lack motivation to do something you should, you have to look for an inspiration. It suggests that it would really be of big help if you read the successful women's (or men's) bio and see how they took the challenges and be a cut above the rest.

Well, I wanted to do that. I was thinking of reading Hilary Clinton's life and be inspired by her (i haven't read it yet...maybe later). But with the surmountable amount of braincells usage and deep-crushing contemplation (no pun intended), I realized that I cannot only be inspired by Hilary Clinton but with a lot of other things and with a lot of other people. Early this week, I was able to talk to a classmate who works for an NGO. I was inspired. I talked to my mother and asked for her advice and I got inspired. I was inspired by a law student who lost both legs due to a blast in La Salle during Bar exams and yet she's determined to be a lawyer. A teacher, whom despite of financial and physical constraints, was able to get through of it all and became very successful. Lady gaga's approach on music style and genre is also very inspiring (except the fashion aspect) or by a Pastor's preaching on a Sunday service. I realized that these people have struggles too but they overcome it. I just have to figure out how they do it.

I guess, all I am saying is, there would be times when we feel like sh*t (excuse my language) once in a while for some reason or for no reason at all and be a total pain in other people's neck or hating them for putting such pain in our neck or whatever, but the most important thing is we realized that we made a mistake and we are willing to go out of our way to make up for it. Knowing other peoples' struggles and mishaps made me realized that it's okay to have hell days or weeks (months?God forbid!) but we need to make an effort not to drag other people down with us in our misery. As one Facebook status of a friend says, "Kung miserable buhay mo, di na kasalanan ng iba yun".

I am trying to make up for what I did last week especially towards my officemates. I am thinking of making out the best of last 3 week stay in the office. I try not to be tight on them. Just let it loose and have a pure unadulterated fun (pun intended) with them. Thanks to those who inspired me to do good and be good.

Did someone inspire you today?


MAMOI